I would just like to edit my conclusions.

Please refer to the comments by Torbin:


The Crabwood disc says:

"Beware the bearers of FALSE gifts & their BROKEN PROMISES.Much PAIN but still time.EELIE1366E.There is GOOD out there.We oPpose DECEPTION.COnduit CLOSING,"

So, the title of my blog is wrong and perhaps also much of my conclusions. Maybe readers will still find some of the information useful on their search.
A Crop glyph formation at Crabwood with an Alien face holding CD with ASCI code message reads:
"Beware the bearers of FALSE gifts & their BROKEN PROMISES.
Much PAIN but still time.
There is GOOD out there.
COnduit CLOSING [bell sound]"

The word 'EELrijue' was not a 'mistake' that some have interpreted to be the word 'believe', but it has the intentional meaning of:
'Editable, Executable Library of a multitude' and it is referring to the infinitely evolving Collective Consciousness. The fact that this word was 'corrupted' in the crop formation seems to me to be indicating that for humanity, our Collective Consciousness is 'corrupted' or possibly even 'tampered with'. The 'false gifts and broken promises' bearers are the ETs depicted in the glyph, who are commonly referred to as the 'greys' who made agreements with the United States government for genetic experimentation in exchange for technological 'gifts'. The messengers want us to know that they are the benevolent messengers who also sent the 'Aricebo Reply' crop glyph along with the humanoid face.

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Awakening, My story

Okay, I've thought of just keeping my own personal opinions and perspectives off of this blog, but I think I'm at a point now where I'm ready to share my personal thoughts and opinions about what is going on. I've seen enough 'out there' on the internet that other people are experiencing similar strange things, especially through the 'Project Camelot' series, so I'm going to spill it all out... about my own personal experiences and how I got interested in the Crabwood crop circle and my personal Awakening experience. Of course, my story goes way back, but I'm going to just start with just before, during and after my personal 'awakening' experience.

“The veil is being lifted”
When I first moved to my present location, my husband had a dream about our marriage and how we were meant to be together to sanctify each other. I also had a dream of the same thing, and with my dream, I kept hearing the words “the veil is being lifted, the veil is being lifted” repeating over and over in my head. I had the impression that this was happening throughout the world, not just for me.
The trial
I had gotten some pesticide spray on me from a gardener and became extremely ill immediately following. There were those in my community that wanted the grass to look like a golf course and everything to always look 'perfect' according to their perception of 'perfection' and so pesticide spraying was going on on a continual basis, almost daily. I was having excruciating headaches that would last for 3 days and would not go away with medication every time they sprayed. Most neighbors were apathetic about it until I brought to their attention the dangers of pesticides and a few also said that they had been experiencing the same kind of headaches as well as fatigue. I tried through the 'normal' channels to resolve the problem, but it became a 'battle of wills' so to speak, so I began praying about the situation on a daily basis to resolve the problem spiritually. I walked around the community in the evenings praying the rosary daily for a whole year. Part of my prayer was crying out to God, that this is a battle that I shouldn't even be having to fight... why am I stuck in a world where these kinds of battles take place where there is obvious harm to people and the earth taking place and injustices are prevailing? And so, I began to pray for an end to injustices in general as well and for the earth to be cleansed. I was also praying for the fulfillment of a scripture that was given to me under miraculous circumstances many years ago which is Ephesians 3:14 . An internet friend also was praying for me who said she received a 'message' for me from God. Part of the message was that I was to lay my head on Jesus' lap like Mary Magdalene and just rest. So I also did this as a daily meditation before I went to sleep. At the end of the year, all the people who had been a part of the problem either moved or were removed from their positions as property manager and there were new gardeners that were not spraying anymore.

The 'Trigger' moment (Catharsis, Epiphany)

Then I had the following dream:

There were two angels in a painting. I understood that the painting was painted by my sister (her name is Sylvia). The two angels came to life and flew out of the painting and went up to God. They came back to me and one of the angels was holding a sphere of light. The angel placed the sphere of light into my heart and I felt an instant of "ecstasy" with God, comprehending with my heart the incredible love and depth of God's mercy. His breadth, length, height, and depth appeared to me as the expanse of the universe with all its stars.

Upon awakening, my first impression/ interpretation of the dream was that the significance of the scripture of Ephesians 3:14 was much more significant than I had ever dreamed or imagined.

This was the morning of January 1st, 2007. It was the Feast of the Holy Family and World day of Prayer for Peace and the Feast of St. Sylvester. In my church bulletin for that day, was a blurb about Constantine and St. Sylvester. Since it referred to the date 314 and my sister's name being Sylvia and the dream I had, it had caught my eye. St. Sylvester is the figure that is commonly used to depict "Father Time" in the New Year.

Since this dream, I have been researching the symbols and meaning of the dream and feel led to "seek and you shall find".

For some reason, I had the impression along with the dream that the bible was encoded. So, not having any knowledge on the subject, I began to do a search on the internet and found the website about picture bible codes On this website was a bible code having to do with the 'handwriting on the wall' passage in the Old Testament. The author of the website had an image of a pointing hand that was leprous and was healed. He also went into detail on the subject of biblical prophesy years on the website. I asked him if there was any significance between the sign or vision that Constantine had and the leprous hand/ handwriting on the wall incident. He said, he didn't know, but that the time span between the two events fit in with his biblical prophesy years concept.

I also contacted my sister and told her what happened and she told me that she had a dream that was sort of a part of or 'fitting in with' my dream... the two dreams went together. I felt like she was meant to be a 'spirit guide' to help me through understanding what I was going through. Up until this point I had never heard of 2012 or the Awakening or any of this stuff so I was kind of freaking out.

So after this, I started researching the Chi-Rho cross and its meaning, and any other symbol that came along having to do with this and I started learning about 2012 and the precession of the equinoxes etc. and one thing led to another including stumbling upon the Crabwood crop circle.

Meanwhile, I felt like I was in a highly spiritualized state of mind like I was walking on air. But it was also very stressful, because I felt a strong calling toward forgiveness and making peace with past events. Then one day, I was just walking down the hallway in my house and I heard a voice say, “You are at the Crossroads, do you want the path to life or to destruction?” And I answered “life of course.” It seemed that there was both a benevolent presence and a malevolent presence wanting to clarify my answer and so, then I was given the image of my son on a white horse conquering or in a battle for the Catholic Church with the suggestion that I would be made a queen and my son would be a king and that the Catholic Church would “triumph” in this way. I thought immediately that it was a deception and recognized the false gift of 'fame' similar to Jesus' trial during his fasting for 40 days in the desert. I also thought that the vision was rather funny, and said, why would I want my son to go to war? No, I don't want anything to do with that, I just want peace and oneness and equality for everyone and that everyone would be saved, and no 'church' would be 'triumphant' but all would win. So, to clarify my position, I said:

"I turn everything over to Jesus, including any particular religious institution, and any "reward" here on earth or in heaven and laying "all things in subjection to Him" under your feet, past present and future, on behalf of all humanity past present and future in union with the God and the True Divine Will, and I will that all things would be made new, that we would return to God's purpose and place and that everyone would be equal, that no one would have a higher or lower place, including myself, that Heaven and Earth would be reunited into God's Kingdom. The ultimate sacrifice is this, "to be willing to lay down one's life for one's friends". It is the ultimate sacrifice, and I am willing to make this sacrifice for love. GOD IS LOVE and so he would want ALL His children to be saved, including myself."

After I said this, I heard the words, "the King's decree, once given cannot be rescinded."

I also had the impression that if I had chosen otherwise, or if I had chosen the vision, that I would have gone back to 'sleep' or would be back under the 'veil' of illusion. I also had the impression that there were two kings, the 'king of this world', and the 'king of heaven' and that the bible could be 'unravelled' so to speak to 'make sense' according to either 'king' or whichever 'king' I had decided to pledge my allegiance to. I had the feeling that the bible had two 'strands' that could be pulled apart in the bible according to either interpretation.

Then there were visions of a dragon that wanted to devour me and tried to tell me that I was not a beloved child of God because of my sins. I spiritually 'fought' the 'dragon' by praying the rosary and it was gone. Then I had a voice tell me that my son belonged to them. And I answered, “no, he belongs to God.” I had a sense that they were wanting me to say that my son belonged to me, but I knew that the correct answer was that he belonged to God. Then I felt another presence of good 'angels' or spirits congratulating me and smiling, but knowingly... knowing that I was going to prevail through these temptations. And then I was asked to repeat my decision 3 times, and I felt there was a correlation between Jesus asking Peter three times “Do you love me” because I had the impression that they already understood my decision, and I was thinking already, “you know my answer, why are you asking?” because I knew they were reading my mind. So I was asked three times and had to answer three times and had to clarify 'which God' it was that I was referring to, and I was getting the impression that the 'label' of the name was not what they were looking for, so I kept clarifying that it was the God of love and light that I wanted to be with. I was kind of annoyed after the third time.

After this incident, I had excruciating back pain, something that I have suffered from for a long time, but not always that extreme. It was hurting so much that I could not get out of bed. Then I had the vision of the Tree of Life, which for me represented all of humanity and I felt that my suffering was given to me to help suffering humanity. I was so sad, that I started crying, and I cried all night for humanity. I felt I was being given a profound love and sorrow for all of humanity. I felt I was being asked to offer this suffering to God and was given the option for healing, I accepted the offer and the pain was immediately taken away.

After that incident, I felt like my mind was going back to 'normal' (instead of this highly spiritualized state) and I wondered whether all that had happened was just in my mind. I knew that something extraordinary had happened, but you know, you always doubt yourself. So I just thought, well either I'm nuts or something just happened that is very important. So after reading more and more about other people's experiences of the Awakening on the internet, I realized that this was really happening. Each person seems to have a different experience depending on the spiritual perspective they are coming from, but what I realized was that we were all having the same 'symptoms'. I describe these 'symptoms' under my other posting “Symptoms of the Awakening”

I also felt threatened (telepathically?) by some malevolent being who was very angry at me for making this blog, but was told by some benevolent beings who laughed at what they were saying and they told me, “they do not have the authority to do what they are telling you they are going to do.”

Specifically what struck me about the Crabwood crop circle was the line in the message, “beware the bearers of false gifts and broken promises.” to me, this immediately triggered in my mind the story of the Trojan War, and there wasn't very much discussion on this connection that I could find on the internet among people discussing this crop circle. Also, since I had been in Heidelberg and saw the Heidelberg monkey, that was another memory that was triggered by the crop circle. Hopefully, the reader can see by browsing my postings the connections that I'm trying to bring to the forefront in relation to the message. I'm just getting the impression that, we are being told basically, this is our whole history... that we are being duped or deceived constantly. And just that we should be wiser and more cautious and yet more simplistic about what the truth is. From what I have learned is that love is greater than knowledge. And that once we are able to truly love, then we will be given knowledge. Until then, we should be cautious and skeptical of anyone claiming to have all the truth or all the knowledge, because each of us has been living under a veil of our own perception of truth. Each of us has our own blind spots to the whole truth. Each of us has had our own personal motives and reasons for believing in one thing or another. Each person has a piece of the puzzle, and each person is coming from a different perspective. If we each shared what we 'think' we know, we would begin to see the puzzle pieces forming a picture and which pieces fit and which do not.

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